Jealousy?

Dear Reader,
What a last couple weeks! I've missed you. I've missed talking to you and tell you a story. I have some time right now so I'm going to write to you, because you deserve it; and even though it's late I'm Thankful for you.


WHAT?!?!?!? Did his new girlfriend really just Facebook me..? What is she thinking? WHAT THE HELL?!?!? Manda keep your cool, you've been dating too. It's okay everything will be okay.. keep your cool.
Now look I know this shouldn't have hit me the way it did, but I couldn't help it. I broke down into tears. I was just sad because well I don't know? The boys I've dated don't go telling Carsen that we are dating, even if they know him they don't say anything and I was so freakin' frustrated, who does this girl think she is..

The first thing that popped into my head was; has she met my son?? So that's just what I asked her.
"Are you Carsen's new girlfriend?"

"Yes."

"Have you met MY son?"

"Yes, and he's so cute. I have two brothers about his age, he's so adorable."

"oh.. How many times have you met him? And how long have you been dating Carsen?"

"Only a few times at his parents and about 3 months."

WHAT?!?! Only 3 months and he's letting you meet MY baby...ew... oh man was I livid!

Understand that I now have been dating a boy since July and Reader I'm telling you he has NEVER met Paxton, he's seen pictures but has never met MINE and CARSEN'S son. NEVER!!! And that was just the thing, I don't thing Paxton needs to meet everyone we date. I'm only dating casually but unless I think it's going to be serious I honestly see no reason for these boys or girls to meet my son.
WHO THE HELL??

*No Reply*

"But Manda if you don't want me being around Paxton I completely understand, I really want to be on good terms with you."

Well Miss Thing no I don't want you anywhere around my son, he's mine! But I don't have the control Reader that is all Carsen, what Carsen and Paxton do together is none of my business and I have no say..

"I honestly have no say in you being around Paxton, that is all Carsen. I'm not mad at you because I don't have that jurisdiction anymore. Thank you for letting me know who you are. Have a nice day."

And that was it. And no I didn't say anything to Carsen for a long time, she asked me not to so I didn't, honestly he had no idea.
Some may call it jealousy, envy or something like that but honestly I was just in shock. Not shocked that he got a dat, that's not nice Reader. But I was shocked that she came to me. I can say that I would NEVER approach a baby momma, especially an ex wife baby momma. She has balls and I completely respect her for that. She's very brave, because if she's heard the kinda things about me that I think she probably has I would never in a million years.



It's not so bad. I need to be nice. I need to keep the peace. If Carsen is happy, then great for Carsen. I'm happy for him, for moving forward with life.


Reader we are finally entering the life of school. Entering the school year, this will be good this will mean you are only 4 months behind and that means there is going to be a lot of stories to tell. This has been the craziest 4 months for me and so I feel like it's been crazy for Paxton and probably Carsen too.


School!! Yes, I did it. I'm starting school at Weber State, I'm so excited. I'm so proud of myself.

*Text*
"Carsen, I got into Weber and am going to sign up for class? Do we wanna work something out so that while one is at school the other has Paxton? I'm really proud of myself and really need your help if we want this to work. Thanks"

"No. I don't know my schedule, just make your classes."

For now,,
Love <3
Mommy Manda.